Day forty-six, Richard

Maybe all this time you have been setting up an experiment using yourself as crash test dummy?

Remember that one of your most precious tenants is the one about being happy no matter what.

Subconsciously then, the theory goes that you have been intentionally attracting all this misery to test your ability to stay happy in spite of the level of challenge that you have created for yourself. Yah?

Whoa.

Are you satisfied yet?

I think I have done a fair job of laughing in the face of financial catastrophe.

Agreed, we all think so. But quite possibly it's time to close the book on this test and put yourself in another petri dish. Perhaps one a touch more, how should we say, abundant?

You seriously think I have been sabotaging my "success" all this time?

You don't have to do that with your fingers, I know what you mean by success. And you have achieved it. You remain happy, no?

Paradoxically, yes.

But you also recognize that this phase is over with another about to begin, one that includes all those things that you once derided?

I do.

What should we do next, then?

Get going?

Move in the direction of your dreams. Think it so. Your vision of success has been here all along. You simply need to allow yourself the rewards of your effort and experience. And, yes, get going.

I feel better already.

And one other thing.

Yes?

Try not to be such a dick.